I heard a story once of this teenage girl. She was a very attractive girl with a smile that would light up any room. She was very popular and the head of her class to boot. She had the perfect life and everyone wanted to be her. Let's give her a name... oh say... Kacey. So Kacey was what all the boys wanted and all the girls wanted to be. She wanted to go to Harvard and get her law degree and climb her way to the top of the social ladder and eventually get married and have two kids. She had no trouble making the grade and no qualms about going to parties and having a few drinks- she could do both without any problem. One night at a party she meets this guy. He was the guy all the girls wanted and the guys wanted to be. So they made a really good match. Mr. and Miss popularity. He had the grades as well as the moves too. Kacey fell head over heels for him and soon enough they were dating. They were practically inseperable and as prom was around the corner- they made plans. Not marriage- they were too young and both wanted to accomplish so much, but they were "in love" and the night after the Big Dance they had THE "big dance". Kacey didn't really want to, but her man was going to college in Denver and she wanted him to know she loved him enough to give "it" up so he wouldn't forget her and they would always be together.
Six weeks later she's in the girls bathroom leaving what was her lunch in the toilet. Graduation is only two weeks away and she's been accepted into Harvard. Here she is desperately seeking the answer to why she's all of a sudden sooo sick- it's like lunch always tastes bad and she never eats breakfast because she's too exhausted to get up in the mornings. She tells her BFF about what had happened after Prom and soon she's at her BFF's house looking at two pink lines on a stick. Kacey slumps to the floor in tears. She didn't want this. She was going to Harvard after all. She thinks about it a few more days before telling her boyfriend. Kacey comes to the conclusion that this isn't a baby- it's a parasite and one that's going to ruin her life. The one thing to do is to take care of it. So she gets a fake ID and goes into a clinic where she ends this mistake. She never got around to telling her boyfriend. He broke up with her right before graduation and never spoke to her again. Kacey figures that she was smart to get rid of her parasite because no one wanted it anyway. She told herself that next time she'd be smarter and use protection. So Kacey graduates and heads to Harvard.
While in college Kacey joins a sorority group- she is, after all, the most desired and envied girl on campus. Soon she has hundreds of Frat boys calling her and taking her out on dates. She dives into the party scene and soon she's taking a different guy back to her place every other week. She swore up and down that since she's using protection that her mistake wouldn't take a repeat, but sure enough she finds herself staring down on that little white stick knowing that the Parasite has returned. But Kacey knew she just had too much to do, too much to accomplish. No one would have to know that she made another mistake. Besides she didn't even know who the father was. There were too many to count and she was way too drunk to remember anything half the time. So she took care of the parasite and went on her way.
Kacey eventually graduated from Harvard. It took longer than she had cared for, but she had fun and lived it up so she could focus later on her career. She buckled down, went to law school and a year into grad school met Mike. Mike was a really nice guy. He was different from any guy she had ever met and after three years of dating they were engaged to be married. Kacey had enough of law and dedcided that she would be a stay at home mother after her and Mike got married. She had enough of partying and the wild life and looked forward to settling down and starting a family. She figured she didn't have a problem getting pregnant- she had after all gotten pregnant twice! So on December 10th, 1990 she and Mike became husband and wife.
They had been married for a year before they started trying to become pregnant and Kacey looked forward to seeing those two pink lines and welcome their soon-to-be child. After two years of trying and no baby, Kacey decided to go see a fertility specialist. After numerous tests, poking, and prodding, the doctor came in the examination room with the news. The doctor said, "I'm sorry, but there is so much scar tissue that your eggs are not able to implant properly. Have you had an abortion before?" Kacey had never told anyone- not even her husband- because they had been mistakes and no one needed to know... until now. She confessed to the doctor that she had indeed had two abortions, but what did that have to do with anything? The doctor said that the procedures done to her had damaged her uterus so badly that Kacey would never be able to get pregnant. Kacey broke down in the middle of the doctor's office overcome with grief. She would never be able to have a baby and had killed the only two children she would ever concieve. Kacey eventually told Mike about everything that had happened and two years later they divorced.
Kacey dove back into law with everything she had in her. Her career would be her baby now. She also partied and drank heavily, occasionally diving into recreational drugs. She was so overcome by hate for herself and anger that she would never be a mother. She eventually was fired from her job because she would come into the office plastered or wasted after a crazy night at the bar or club and became so addicted to coke that she stole money from people just to get the next high. She hated herself so much that she dreamed of suicide and slept with any man that would take her. She wanted to be loved by anyone. She had to take sleeping pills because the nightmares would keep her awake at night. The nightmares of screaming children, the vacuum noises, the blood on the floor. She had seemed fine at the time, but now the darkness overshadowed her and she just couldn't escape.
Kacey was now 40. Her once shining beauty had dulled into a plain complexion. The despair and desperation made her look a lot older now. One day soon after her birthday she met a man named Paul. Paul was an average-looking guy with determination and spunk. Kacey knew something was different about him, but wasn't sure what. This curiosity drew her to him and soon they were going out to lunch on a weekly basis. Kacey didn't mind that he talked about this man called Jesus and forgiveness... in fact she became even more curious and one day asked why Paul seemed so happy all the time. He told her about his past that was filled with robberies of every kind and accidentally shooting a 10 year old boy and how one day he had decided to try to hang himself because his wife had left him for his best friend and took everything he owned. Paul told her how life had seemed so meaningless and that he dreamed of leaving this world. But he also explained that when he put that rope around his neck he realized that he didn't know what he would leave this world to go to. He didn't know what would happen after he died. A day later this guy told him about Jesus and forgiveness and what it means to be loved. "I haven't been the same ever since I asked Jesus to change my life and forgive me and love me." said Paul. Kacey wanted what Paul had. Kacey wanted to be forgiven for killing her two babies. They had never been parasites. They had been living human beings. So right there at the lunch table Kacey asked Jesus to forgive her and love her. The nightmares stopped, she eventually stopped doing drugs, and three years later Kacey and Paul were married.
This story may seem unreal, but this is the world we live in today. People are desperately seeking love and approval, forgiveness and self-worth. The God of the universe loves you so much that He sent His Son to die for you on a cross two-thousand years ago. But His Son didn't stay dead. He rose again so that you could be with Him in heaven. It says in Romans 5:8 that even while we were yet sinners (people who do things that aren't pleasing to God) Jesus Christ died for us. Romans 3:23 says that ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Every human being has sinned. Romans 6:23 says that For the wages(or payment) of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. We deserve to be punished for our sins. God isn't just a good God, He is a just God. Sin has to be punished. BUT God gives us eternal life if we choose Jesus Christ. When we do that Jesus takes our place. When He died on the cross He took our sin on Himself and took the punishment on our behalf. Since it is a gift- it has to be recieved by the person it is offered to. God can't force you to choose His way. He gives you a choice- follow Him or live your own way. If you want to choose Jesus just tell Him. It's called prayer. You're talking to Him. Confess to Him that you're a sinner that needs to be saved. Tell Him that you can't live your life without Him and that you believe what He did for you is real. Tell Him that you're putting Him in the driver's seat and ask that He forgive you of your sins. He will change your life. I know He can because He changed mine.
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