End of Day 2- UGH!

Today was sooo hard! I wasn't feeling good already and at the end of the day when Larry got home I was so weak and discouraged- I want food soooo very badly. But I must stay strong. I figured it out that I just have a serious need to chew. So I fixed that! I got like 6 different flavors of gum. It helped sooo much after I drank the nasty laxative tea- I didn't feel nauseated afterwards like I did yesterday. :-) I can't wait to get sleepy so I can sleep- you burn less energy and you wake up feeling less hungry than right before you go down. I'm physically tired, but mentally I'm like wide awake. *sigh* I hope tomorrow's better. Phoebe was very kind to me today. She only bonked herself 4 times and screamed 5. It's hard doing this and constantly being mentally on guard. We both survived today and since Larry will be home tomorrow I'm gonna ask him if he'll just make his own food. Do you know how cruel and unusual it is to make someone cook food and not eat it?! It's like showing raw flesh to a tiger! Ugh- I'm craving doritos right now because that was a part of Larry's dinner. I hope after all this is over I wo'nt crave doritos. I watched three movies today. One was Amelie- HORRIBLE! Russian Ark- WEIRD! Dreamgirls- that one was decent. (these are only my personal opinions- if you like the movies good for you) It helped pass the time so that's the only reason I didn't turn them off when I really wanted to. I'm feeling so desperate to find things to get me through the next day, but as long as I get through these next 8 days- I'll be happy. Pray that I don't go crazy and that the Lord gives me grace to just get through this- and pray that this whole thing works for me because if it doesn't I will be sooooo sad.